And you say ask...
so I ask of the Lord....
and I say "I'm scared and scarred. And I'm not so sure about this business of putting my heart, the secret dreams of my heart, on the table. Because what if, what if, I'm that one person that they don't come true for."
And I think of all the major and minor gifts you have given me. And of how they are way better than I could have come up with on my own.
I need your love to unlock me. Cause I've been feeling myself receding behind a façade of control and understanding. I think I threw away the key and I'm not sure where I threw it. I'm so broken and undone on the inside and fear, fear is my protective hedge--but not really.
Forgive me father for I have sinned.
Forgive me Christ for I have lied.
Forgive me Spirit for I have grieved you.
Forgive me humans for I have not trusted you.
One thing I ask of the Lord, that I may seek Him in his holy temple, that I may dwell in his presence, that I may hear the word of the Lord and not harden my heart.
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